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Out of the Darkness

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When I was a child my parents always made sure I was in church. Even the Sunday after I was born. So for as long as I can remember I have known about God.
My Father is in the Military and this caused my family to move quite a bit. I have lived in many places over many years. The longest time I ever spent in one place was for four years, but mostly my family moved every 6 months to 12 months. I never really had the chance to adjust very well, and I gave up trying to make friends when I was young because I never knew how long I was going to be around. It made things easier for me if I kept to myself.
   Going to Church for me was a ritual, and I learned to hate it. I remember that all of the bad things in our family happened on Sunday. My Father seemed always angry, my Mother seemed always stressed. And then when everyone got to Church they put on a fake face. So at a young age I began to dislike Church and everything that it stood for. I began to want no part of God because I was looking at other people. People that claimed to know God.
   When I began High School things started to change, I started to be a little more open and comfortable with where I was because it was the first time in my life that my family had stayed in one place for a longer amount of time. I thought we weren't going to move again. My parents put me in a private Christian school, but even there I was dissatisfied. I remember mocking other Christians, and making fun of them because they were excited to goto Church and learn of God. I started to associate with other people who had the same views that I did, others that secretly hated Christianity and what it stood for. It was at this point in my life I started to actively live against God, not only in a mental way, but a physical way. I no longer cared what God thought, even though I knew He was real. My choices of friends determined a lot of things for the next couple years. My music, attitude, and appearance changed to match my heart. It represented darkness.    In the middle of my last year in High School my family moved again. By this time I was very numb to others and cared little about anything. I went from one of the busiest places in America to a small town in the woods of Pennsylvania. My graduating class was 10 people, and half of them were exchange students from other countries. It was very.. interesting. By this time I cared very little about things of God, even though my parents still made me goto Church because I was still under their authority. And after I had graduated High School my direction kept on getting more Godless. I made trips back to where all of my old friends were and started to associate with people in the drug and party culture. I then started to get involved in it. When I returned to Pennsylvania to live with my family, I again sought out others that had the same habits and views that I did. And I began to cause problems not only for my family, but also many other Christians. Soon I got the attention of many people in a bad way, and I eventually decided to leave my family, my problems, and God behind me and go out on my own. I left my family in 2003 and moved a long way away. I had become so cold towards everyone that I didn't even say goodbye some of my family. All I cared about was myself.
   I became homeless of my own free will and I lived in a field for sometime. Eventually I got a job working at a store at nights from 10-pm to 7-am because it was the only job that I could find. When I was able to afford an apartment, I got flat-mates that were into the same things that I was and this only made my situation worse. I kept on going my own way ignoring God and living my life against Him, but God was working. The Point in my life where God changed my heart came at an unexpected moment.
   I will never forget this day as long as I live. It didn't seem like a special day at first. I had gotten home from work and it was about 8 or 9 am. My flat-mate wanted to watch a movie so I agreed to watch it with him. About half way through the movie my friend fell asleep, and i kept on mindlessly watching. Alone to myself, It was at this time God spoke to my heart and opened my eyes to many things all at once. God confronted me with my sins against, and made me look past the hypocrisy that I accused other Christians of and look at Himself.He opened my eyes to where my sin was leading me and others around me. And it was at this point in my life God made me make a Choice. Either trust and follow Him, or continue in my Sins and go the way of destruction. And that was the hour I first believed and trusted God with all my heart.
   I then began to throw away all of the things that were keeping me from God, my flat-mates thought I went crazy because to them I was throwing away things that were valuable, but to me I knew that if these things were keeping me from God than they were worthless. I started to desire to goto Church more to learn of God, and to study His Word for the Truth. And God started to bring me out of the pit that I had led myself into. I had many issues that I had to deal with, I had my addictions and habits, my longtime wounds with my family. I had to soon deny my friends to do what was right, and I had to face hard situations but my God was with me through each one. God brought many people to help me and cause me to grow. Six months later God laid it on my heart to be re-baptized to signify the new life that I had.  And as I look back on my situations now, I know that God used all of these things in my life to draw me to Himself. And that the most amazing thing is that He did not have to open my eyes, but could have let me go my way to destruction. But in His mercy because He loves me and gave His all for me, He brought me to Himself. And now I am one of those people I once mocked, I love to study His word and learn of His love and His path for my life, I love being at Church with other flawed Christians who celebrate the same great God. I am in awe of the God who took a selfish,cold,dying soul and gave him a loving,tender,new heart. I am in love with the God who first loved me and gave Himself for all of my sins.
   Friend, God says that He wishes that none of us would die with out Him, and that all would turn in Truth and come to Him. And it is my prayer that if you have not done so, that you will turn to God and Believe in His Son as the Payment for your sins against Him, that you too may be Born Again and have eternal life. God has brought me out of the darkness and into His light, He has given me a Hope for the Future, and promises that will not fail. And dear friend, He wants the same for you.
My, life & a piece of me.

Thank God for the friends He has given.
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gracelikerain316's avatar
Thank you for sharing your testimony. I love the stories that God writes in our lives, for the glory of His name. Bless you.